Monday, July 11, 2011

The Book Club


                She fucked me like I was a virgin.  I guess in a sense, technically I was.  I had never been penetrated before by a man, or a woman for that matter.  I considered myself the dominant one and what people would consider a ‘top’.  I always told myself though, for the right one, I’d be bottom.  Never thought it’d be at the mercy of a feminine woman, though.

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                We met at Barnes & Noble.  More specifically the relationship and sex aisle, of course.  I was looking, just to see if anything sparked my interest.  She on the other hand was reaching for an orange paperback book on tantric sex as if she’d only come in with that book in mind.  Although I flipped through a couple of books on positions, kissing, and massages I couldn’t help but look over at her every few seconds.  Apparently she noticed.
                “I know I don’t owe you an explanation, but I’m just fascinated by this.  A friend told me she had an hour long orgasm with her partner.  I just couldn’t believe the shit. Are you familiar with this?” she asked with a wink. 
                She was bold as hell and smooth, very smooth.  She caught me off guard and although there were so many things going on in my mind about this very moment, the only thing I could fathom to get out was a nervous laugh. 
                “Touché.  I’m sorry.  I didn’t mean to stare but I was a bit curious about what you were reading.  There’s something about this section of the bookstore that always fascinates me.  Normally it’s awkward with another person here at the same time, but the energy I’m getting from you is quite intriguing.  The pictures I saw you flip through didn’t hurt either.” I said with a smirk.  Part of me thought that I was offering a friendly gesture.  Soon after I let the corners of my mouth curl up slightly, I realized it could’ve been perceived as flirting.  That notion didn’t bother me either, though.
                “Well, I can understand.  Sex is quite fascinating.  Especially when you can explore all the things you never knew existed just by walking in a bookstore.  What better way to learn than reading right?” she asked
                “Hmmm, I could think of a few better.” I mumbled before quickly dropping down to the bottom shelf to prevent embarrassment.  I didn’t mean to say that aloud.
                “Is that right?” her breath floated past my ear lobe.  She apparently was interested in something on the lower shelf too.
                “Oh well I mean---“I drifted off into a nervous chuckle.
                “Sure.” She said with a wide smile.  She knew she had gotten to me.  She was enjoying it.  I couldn’t quite tell if she was gay, or just liked flirting.  Either way I was sure she definitely enjoyed flirting.
                “Well, I can’t help but to blush for some reason.  I’m sorry.  I guess sex still makes me embarrassed in the company of strangers and beautiful women.” I confessed.
                “You know, there’s no need to be.  I’m sure you can find something here about that." She said soothingly.  Her voice was raspy and rich.  Just like Nutella spread on graham crackers.
                “Very true.  Maybe this submissive instructional book will give me something new to play around with.  Perhaps I’ll get lucky.” I said jokingly.
                “Mmm.  Damn.  Really?  You don’t look like the submissive type.” she replied.
                “I’m normally not.  Doesn’t make the curiosity dissipate.”  I said blushing.
                “Damn.  I mean, wow.  You’re blushing!  I’m so sorry.  I guess this is a bit personal.  I don’t mean to hold you up.  I should probably get going anyway.  I told my girlfriends I’d meet them out for drinks in the area and thought I’d kill some time.  Anyway enjoy your book---“ she said extending the invitation for me to offer my name.
                “King…err umm Erin King.  Thanks I’ll try.  You do the same---“ I said returning the gesture.
                “Christian.” She said smiling.
                “Well it was definitely a pleasure.  Enjoy your night with your friends.” I said right before she smiled and turned to walk away.  I wanted to run and give her my number.  Just in case she wanted to share what she’d learned about that tantric sex.  Oh well, I could always buy my own copy right?  I could always dream of hour long orgasms to go along with my daydreams of being submissive, couldn’t I?
                I got to the register and was two people behind Christian.  I could tell it was her from the golden paisley sun dress and kinky afro.  She was beautiful.  She was at the register and although she was close enough for me to go and speak if I really wanted to, my nerves got the best of me with all the customers around.  I saw her sign her receipt, grab her bags and turn to leave.  Our eyes met.  She bit the corner of her bottom lip and turned back around briskly on the balls of her feet.  She was gesturing to the cashier for an ink pen and pulled the receipt out of her bag and was scribbling something on it.  I guess the normal person would only notice this if they were next in line.  After all it would be that person that she was directly holding up.  I noticed, just because I couldn’t keep my eyes off of her.  When she turned around again she had a nervous smile on her face.  It was half the look of relief.  The other half looked as if she was wondering if she had done the right thing.  I didn’t know what was going on.  All I knew was my palms starting sweating when she got closer to me. 
                “Goodnight Erin.  Hopefully I’ll be seeing you around sometime, learning.”  Christian said in passing; her voice slightly above a whisper.  It was like she floated by me and left her words in the wind with the confidence they would make it to my ear.  That moment happened so quickly I didn’t have time to respond or to think for that matter.  Perhaps she enjoyed leaving me speechless and unprepared.  All I could do was watch the way her ass filled in the circular prints on her dress, one side at a time as she walked away.
                “Do you have a ---“
                “No.”   I replied before the cashier could finish.  I already knew she was pestering me about a credit card.  I’ll pass.
                “Alrighty then.  Anything else for you today ma’am?” she asked.  I looked around the register for a second.  The smartass in me wondered why they always asked that question when there was nothing around the register for me to want.  It wasn’t like I was at the gas station trying to buy a lottery ticket.  I was buying a book on how to relinquish control in the bedroom and be sexually submissive.  All I could think was that it would be nice if she would hurry up and scan the book so she could put it in the bag before everyone in line behind me saw what I was buying.  I guess you could say I was a bit shy when it came to things like this in a public place.
                “Uh, no.  I’m good.  Thanks.” I said sliding her my Visa credit card.  Hopefully this would speed things along.
                “Sign this for me, please.” She said handing me a pen.  I obliged.
                “Enjoy your night.  Come back and see us!” she said handing me my bag and two receipts.  I balled up the receipts in my hand trying to hurry up and grab my bag and didn’t notice until I had gotten to my car in the garage.  I unfolded the receipts to see my copy, along with one from a purchase I didn’t make.  The book purchased on the receipt said, Making It Last: The Art of Tantric Sex.   How ironic.  The cashier had given me a copy of Christians receipt on accident.  That was crazy to me considering there were two people in front of me.  How was it that I ended up with this?  I sat there momentarily daydreaming about the possibilities.  When I snapped back to reality my eyes focused on the imprint showing through the front of the receipt.  There was something written on the back.  I turned it over to read:
                Erin, I do believe we have some studying to do.  If you’re down and you’re open to learn, meet me tonight at my place.  Text me so I’ll know it’s safe to look forward to your company tonight.                                                                                                                                                                  –Christian.

To be continued...

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Untitled XXV

My hand fits
in his hand print
in places
I never could
fathom his hands had been.

Paintings made of red
and blue-purple markings---
indigo tinted skin
all over your body.
You are a masterpiece with
Pieces left in shambles by your master---


I trace your memory in my mind
trying to put you together
again
but you always seem to fall apart
at the slightest touch
shortest glance---


This moment bothers me now and
was awkward then
you're hiding the mistakes
he made.
I'm paying
and patiently waiting
for you to come around
and lay with me with
our secrets spread
on these black and
red jersey knit sheets tucked under the corners of a
california queen

Forgive me if I pry,
or seem to be
concerned in the least---
just know
there is no harm in this realm
just solace in my arms
and silence in my mind

wish you gasped
from sheer enjoyment
not false pretense
I pray you don't feel him
breaking the skin---
even if for a moment.
I prefer not to enter on these terms
perhaps it's just me.

my hands fit
in his hand prints
in places
id like to be the last one in
places I'd like to fill the space in
hand prints I'd like to erase
and fractures i'd like to mend

My hands hold on
to resentment
not of my own experiences
how selfish of me to wear the pain
for you...

I pray you never find me
heavy handed.

Worthy

For all intents and purposes

Swallowing what those purple

Lips have to speak into my soul

Is indeed my pleasure

To slurp the remainder of an unfinished cadence

into rhythm and

boom kack that ass

double cut time internal external

slant rhyme

scheme

-ing on these hoes

with a toothpick and a smile

two twinkles in each eye

and a palmful of

'Worth your while'.

It'd be a pleasure

to feel the texture

of your morning harvest

blackberries

Grown in

digenous.

Sweeter than than sugar plums

on Christmas---

There is a trail...

Happy and pure and willing

to feed me

dugouts in humid lands

have to offer---

For all intents and purposes

i am inclined to follow

with a palm-ful of

'worth your while'.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Night rise

There is morning harvested moonlit sunsets between those thighs.
by God sunshine,
rise.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

The Dangers I Know

I won't call you a ho' but
I will call you a lesson and
though it was your ass I was caressing
seemed to be under the impression it was your heart
you were handing
and parts of me can't help second guessing that
you knew what you were doing
part of me was just glad to give you affection
From the best of me and
to think you had no intentions of giving anything
except for time to pass---
You came and
I saw
You conquer everything from my mental being

I just knew I knew every fucking thing about fucking everything---

To lust,
You have one up on me

But I still know a little about Love.

Untitled XXIII

My hands prey on you

Speaking to your knees
praying word gets sent on.
Not quite sure if it has something to do with
the lotion residue
left in the webbing
of my fingers
that lingered
long after the lotion was spread
everywhere
especially
in the creases between your thighs.

Perhaps this is just a means
to reunite part of my being
with the Motherland...

Because there are some things
I've yet to learn about her oceans
about her lands
that need to be crossed
to get deeper

If I can push aside...
everything fancy and
lace
and wonderfully well man made
I could get inside
of everything good and plenty and

My hand has a mind of it's own
Perhaps
You could teach it a few lessons.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Scrumptious

You always were my favorite
flavor.
Even before I tasted you,
I had a taste for you.
Something worthy
of a savor.