BBQ Remants

My first love...
I gave you my last $3
In Food Lion
To get these honey barbeque chips
I swore after you gave me my first kiss
With barbeque breath
I'd never eat
That brand of barbeque chips again...
Last night
I finished a bag
Of those chips
Thought about you
Smiled and reminisced
About all the silly little things that made you laugh...
And I missed you
Every now and then...
I realize that I miss my friend...
That I never got to say goodbye to.

Politically Inept

In politically ruled world...
One would think
All the power was in a red tie...
Everything in moderation
And on the contrary...
Nothing is more powerful...
Nothing more potent
Than your two fingers
Under my chin
With your lips pressed against mine.

Anomaly

Fuck.
I wanna be great.
Profound and prolific and...
Fucking phenomenal...
They all tell me I am...
But what am I to you?

The Role

All I can say is it's better now that you left...
Cause hell...
If I don't put on the:
"I'm hard" front...
Who will?

Demolition

Fornication with a woman
I know I don't want
The pussy was good...
But I can't even front
Having a child will not fill the mental void
From you that I want
And having a wedding will not fill
The skills that you lack
Nor will it cover the money
That you never plan to pay back...
So no matter how tight
And no matter how right
I'll be building on negatives
For as long as I allow this pattern
To present itself in my life.

deja vu

Everytime you smile
Light up the sky
Light up the night
Breaks my heart everytime
I miss your amourous rays
To light up my life
Reoccurance
You personify
Life on other planets
Dammit can u handle
Me sliding dreams come...
Gone...
And re-lived
Inside your womb to be born again
And re-live my dreams
Relive our dreams
Baby let me just lay in your mind
Let me jump start your endorphins...
Stimulate you physically...
Then mentally get you high---
Dignity in your strut...
I'm not gonna lie...
After seeing how those legs operate
Makes me wonder fuck
Makes me want to kiss you
On your lips high and below
Just to kiss the flesh that will soon
Bless the wondrous pathway which will soon be the life path for our future son...
Or future daughter...
And I'm going home on friday...
Reoccurance once again
To see my family until Saturday
To be back in time on Sunday...
To thank the Lord for placing you my way...
Opening my eyes...
To see you in time on Thursday...
Just to get your name...
Wasn't to worried about your number
Because when I saw those thighs of thunder
Couldn't help but to imangine my name
Engraved in between...
Damn...
Its funny...
To never see you in my dreams...
You'd like to think
I never would have imagined this...
But I did...
And everyday...
I open my eyes...
Pinch myself
And thank the Lord that you're still here...
Because sometimes...
I think I've had you in a life
Before
This lifetime that I call mine.

Dec. 16th

December 16 I lay face up
From the spot on the ground my body embed itself in
Looked up to heavens
Prayed I'd remember this day
The day that I had fallen in love with you...
And now my mind wanders back 2 years ago
And a part of me wishes I could recant
The statements of my heart
Float back in time
Resurrect my loneliness
Uproot the vulnerabilities I've confided many a midnight
And fall in love with you
All over again...
This year...
On December 16
And every year
In which I'm still alive
For its occurrence.