deja vu

Everytime you smile
Light up the sky
Light up the night
Breaks my heart everytime
I miss your amourous rays
To light up my life
Reoccurance
You personify
Life on other planets
Dammit can u handle
Me sliding dreams come...
Gone...
And re-lived
Inside your womb to be born again
And re-live my dreams
Relive our dreams
Baby let me just lay in your mind
Let me jump start your endorphins...
Stimulate you physically...
Then mentally get you high---
Dignity in your strut...
I'm not gonna lie...
After seeing how those legs operate
Makes me wonder fuck
Makes me want to kiss you
On your lips high and below
Just to kiss the flesh that will soon
Bless the wondrous pathway which will soon be the life path for our future son...
Or future daughter...
And I'm going home on friday...
Reoccurance once again
To see my family until Saturday
To be back in time on Sunday...
To thank the Lord for placing you my way...
Opening my eyes...
To see you in time on Thursday...
Just to get your name...
Wasn't to worried about your number
Because when I saw those thighs of thunder
Couldn't help but to imangine my name
Engraved in between...
Damn...
Its funny...
To never see you in my dreams...
You'd like to think
I never would have imagined this...
But I did...
And everyday...
I open my eyes...
Pinch myself
And thank the Lord that you're still here...
Because sometimes...
I think I've had you in a life
Before
This lifetime that I call mine.

Dec. 16th

December 16 I lay face up
From the spot on the ground my body embed itself in
Looked up to heavens
Prayed I'd remember this day
The day that I had fallen in love with you...
And now my mind wanders back 2 years ago
And a part of me wishes I could recant
The statements of my heart
Float back in time
Resurrect my loneliness
Uproot the vulnerabilities I've confided many a midnight
And fall in love with you
All over again...
This year...
On December 16
And every year
In which I'm still alive
For its occurrence.

Sunny Nights

Your sunshine
Don't do nothin'
But bring me the blues...
Because when I see it from afar...
Does nothing but make me realize
Just how far I am away from you...
But Sunshine...
Oh sunshine...
How I do love your smile...
Just wish you'd hang around a little bit longer...
Squeeze me a little bit harder...
And still be there to warm me up
When the sun goes down.

Dipped in Clover

So tonight I'll dream of sun barely kissed kisses...
Coltrane on our breaths
Miles Davis amidst thrusts
Dizzy Gillespie would find the balance between our hearts...
Soft playing jazz ensembles between your thighs...
Make me one with the Movement
A part of the renaissance
Damn it if your name's Jezebel---
I'll call you
Suave and smooth
I'll seduce you
And you...
You can just call me
Your Soft heart having fool
I'll still call you...
Just catch me up in your groove
That smooth life time shit
In my dreams...
It'll stop before it starts...
And I'll wake up
Once again
To kisses dipped in clover honey
From the same sultry lips
Murmuring the smoothest skats in my ear.

Midnight Spectrum

With the sunrise
You're in my palms...
While in the end
Midnight
Rests its soul
Between
Your thighs
And I wonder
Through out your day
Where the borough fits in
And where your thoughts direct their stare
And what idle ideas
Are synonymous for in your world
As well as the order of your words
In that
Little
Secret
Folded tree
In the backyard of your mind
Because while midnight has been granted the heat of your inner being
I have been left to
Loiter on the outskirts...
Until I'm special enough to be given a role...
Until I'm special enough
to plant my own tree
In your back yard
In the hopes of something
Profound in nature occurring....
Like midnight making room
In the special space inside of you
For the rest of us
In the spectrum
Of light.

Untld: Moment in Brooklyn

So...
Naturally you can understand
My heartbreak
When the one I love
Doesn't
Fucking
Love
Me.

Obviously
All I need is some me time
The shut the world out
And be stingy
Just
With
Me
Kind.

Apparently
You don't give a fuck
Or you're still oblivious
Either way
It's a personal problem

But...
Just don't bitch about the role
Once you've been casted...
And elect not to play
Your
Fucking
Part.

Then again...
I love you through it all...
And I understood
Way before it all...
Sometimes...
In my
Semi-moments of weakness
I sit hoping you'd call
But I still know
You love me....
You just piss me the fuck off sometimes.

Untld: The Loveless

She said if I loved her she'd know it
Shit---
If I felt it I'd show it
But I just said these things to please her
clear her mind
Ready and willing to ease her Pussy lips on the ones between my nose and chin.
Damn---
Never thought she'd want the love
Not from me
Not like this
Didn't know she didn't know I didn't feel like that.
Didn't know she really thought I loved her back...
Then again
Don't think she really did
She just wished really hard
Wished she could remodel me into the prototype of anyone other than the loveless person that I am...
And I can be nothing more
Than who I am...
Without wanting to be that for myself.